Vulnerability
Loving makes you vulnerable! I was told once that the most vulnerable state that you can be in is when you love unconditionally. Have you ever thought about that? If you love without fear or condition, it makes you extremely vulnerable! Think about it.... this can be very scary. Loving unconditionally also means being TRANSPARENT! Think about it: Transparent. YIKES! I don't know about you, but there aren't many people in this world who I can be transparent with. In fact, I only know of one person who has seen me transparent.... only ONE!
There are many ways to love and be vulnerable:
1) In a marriage relationship
2) Parent/child relationship
I could list a few more but these are just a couple of examples that make me think of being vulnerable.
For someone who feels the need to push away and not get too close, I can say that loving unconditionally and without fear is very challenging! I have felt in my heart before so close to someone that I just wanted to run b/c it terrified me to love like that. It was a love different than any other. I wanted this love, I was afraid of it b/c I didn't want to face the rejection of not being loved back the way I felt like I was going to love this person. I still feel like I am afraid to love them too much for fear of my love being rejected at some point in this life!
You know, I was raised to where it was easier to push away when you began to feel too much love or vulnerability to someone. I learned to love, share your love, and walk away fast before you got too burned. I guess that is why in some ways I fear bringing new love(s) in to my life. It is so much easier to keep things at arms distance, but at the same time, life is meaningless without the love like I have experienced. MEANINGLESS!!!
I am so thankful that I have been given certain people in my life to love more than life itself. Have you ever wondered what you would do w/out certain people? I wonder that often. Life is not supposed to be easy or safe. I can only hope that I never push or detach from these people.
I LOVE this feeling inside of me. I wish that I never felt hurt or the need to want to separate my love.
Thank God for being able to know this kind of love. I can't imagine my life without knowing this love! So thankful...................
Hugs,
J
posted by Janell @ 7:17 PM
1 Comments:
Your commens are back!
I hear you on vulnerability...a couple of months ago I blogged on that and posted this that someone had passsed on to me:
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket — safe, dark, motionless, airless — it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable." ~ CS Lewis
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